I am at a stage in my acceptance of Friedreich’s Ataxia, where I am not always looking for a cure (although, this would be handy!). Rather, if something pops up in my life, which may better my wellbeing, I jump at it. For example, I have started doing a form of physical therapy called Bobath. It is by no means a cure for FA, but it might just get my body moving more effectively. This may mean a decrease in falls & pain. No, it’s not a cure, but it’s definitely a win.
This brings me to my recent decision to do/ try/ participate in (I don’t know what word to use) SPIRITUAL HEALING!
I’m not going to explain every, single, thing that we did, in detail. I was there for two and a half hours! However, I will explain the parts that I found significant.
The room that we were in was absolutely beautiful. As soon as I walked in, I felt safe, calm, relaxed and soothed. Visualise crystals, candles, incense, lamps, colour, coolness and an extremely comfy bed with gorgeous cushions and throws. As far as I was concerned, I was already healed. As soon as I lay on the bed, FA was far from my mind.
That was until Shanelle (my healer) said ‘I feel like you are becoming FA, rather than having FA’. Wow! I felt like I’d been hit with a lump of wood and the tears came flowing. I knew what she had said was true. Over the last couple of years, I’ve developed a sense of acceptance of my diagnosis of FA. This needed to happen as my children needed a mum who was happy with herself, content with life and a role model to them. I am definitely all of these things (most of the time). However, I think I have let FA creep a little bit ‘too far’ in. There is such a fine line between acceptance and letting something define you. I need to keep working on this…
Shanelle then gave me a plate of kinetic sand and a large selection of objects. I was to create an artwork which reflected my current mood. I was allowed 4 objects and the sand. I chose the following;
1 A Barbie leg
2 The letter ‘s’
3 A screw
4 An alien figurine
I made my artwork and I was even shocked by my creation. I spread the sand out messily on the plate. I lay the leg flat at the bottom to show my legs don’t work properly. I put the screw on the right hand side to signify a screw going into my heart. I put the letter ‘s’ beside the screw and for me, it stood for sad. I put the alien at the very top to signify an alien being in charge. DEEP! I KNOW! Who said I was happy and content? Just so you know, I’d fallen over three times this day.
My artwork gave Shanelle a deep understanding of how I feel when everything gets on top of me. You know what they say…’a picture tells a thousand words’.
We then moved on to chakra and energy stuff. For those of you who don’t know, here is the meaning of chakra…http://www.chakras.info/7-chakras/
Shanelle used a pendulum to check my energy flow at each of my chakras. The direction and size of the pendulum swing tells a lot about your energy. I’m not going to delve in too much about this part of the session as many personal issues arose. However, the pendulum stopped swinging around my orange, yellow and green chakras (as shown above). This signified a lot of emotion that has built up around my stomach and heart. This emotion has blocked my energy flow, therefore my chakras do not have the healing power that they should.
We talked a lot during this session and many tears were shed. However, I left feeling cleansed and powerful. I can’t wait to go back. Like I said, this is by no means a cure for FA, but the healing possibilities excite me!
By Leah Alstin